back in the booth.

I miss it. The deep breaths relieve stress, exhale and release a mess of words scattered across the page but it make sense when I say it. My heart collaborated with my mind the same way it doesn't when im layin on the mattress, sayin whatever comes to mind so I take in as much as I can and absorb. I can see you on the outside but you burn in my core until I vomit and my stomach acids back up the track but a new verse couldn't even stack up to the first. I keep the page loaded to let off whenever needed. The tracks been seeded and im growin like weeds and I aint never gettin pulled out, the lines that are ruled out and ruled out cuz they so ill they got you screamin like schools out. I woke up and the mic was in my line of sight. I aint got time to write so im spittin for my life cuz I aint got time to live so I got time to give. You can find me in the booth until the day I get big. Dig.

Sotp: hittin all tha spots - otb productions.

oz.

I fell down the yellow brick road.
I guess you're just meant to learn some things.
Like the ignorance of a scarecrow,
Or the fear of a lion,
Or the knowing that even the tin man doesn't have a heart of steel.
Nobody is perfect.
Everyone is missing something,
And love, I think you know just what Im lacking.
Now ill never keep you from doing you,
Just remember,
There's no place like home...

Sotp: meteorite - otb productions. oww...

damn.

I fucked up. Shit real. Didn't post every night, but fuck it. Crazy ass past few nights. I've been zooted out my mind. I dnt even know what to tell you. If I said how I felt, you wouldn't understand. I need to quit smoking. Its a fuckin bad habit.
Fml...

Sotp: im the shit - yeezy
Im not human - weezy.
Feel me?

I fuckin hate this shit. Fuck it.
Wtf!

you keep it too real, boy

They fucked up the dbz movie. I was fuckin disappointed to say the least. I really expected them to be more accurate, but come on, were talkin hollywood, they love to chop up movies. If it was made in japan, it would've been done right. Suprisingly, the guy who played goku was pretty good. Yamcha too. And master roshi. Haha. Anyways...im feelin alright for now. Can't really tell the difference between high or not. wierd right? 9 days til my birthday. This should be a fun little count down. If I can manage to remember, then ill try to post at least once a day leading up to my birthday. I can't wait to get that new ds. That shit is hot. Haha. I pretty much got everything I need for the spring already. I got plenty of clothes, I got all of my mariujana accesories haha, and I got a pretty good grip on my shit. I can't wait to recover from this shoulder shit so I can get back to work. That moneys been on my mind lately. I've had no income for the past week and its drivin me crazy. K im done. Oww...

Song of the post: somebodys watching me remix - mysto & pizzi ya diego!

10101010101010101010101010101010101010101010101010101.

Kiss me thru the phone! Haha fml!

may as well go if I know its my prime

And until I fade, you'll be frozen in time...

I will always know...

If I had a chance to take back the promises I made, then maybe your face wouldn't fade to a mist everytime im high of the piff, and maybe jay wouldn't exist in your memory, I know you got a locker full of love songs and you lock her out of sympathy, cuz you're still feelin me, but now im on a fresh track, trained for the day that ill say im okay with myself, its a better road ahead but the weather never helps cuz I still slip n slide til I flip off the side of the street, to me you were less than a 3 when I left you but when I met you, you was the best thing, cuz ignorance really is a blessing, the truth is too painful and I am unable to cope without pills, your so cold I get chills when I think back, but I don't really know why Id think that you could float the same boat you sink. That's the reason why I will always know...

dear boo...

When you say you're leaving, you leave behind the resin of X's and O's on my lips and around my arms.
When I close my eyes, I see you, and you look just as beautiful as you do when my eyes are open.
Fuck it, I miss you.
You make me smile, and I've been wearing a frown since I woke up.
I took my pain medication today, but I didn't get my daily dose of you.
So now I just got this numb feeling in my chest.
N that's true shit.
Im gonna die with my music...

dear boo

I miss you. You make me happy. You make me feel good. You are a blessing. I am so happy that I have you in my life. I hope you realize what you mean to me...

on some sick shit...

Im startin to like the perks...

my fuckin shoulder hurts.

I did it. Im all done. I fuckin did it. They fucked my shit up, but I did it. I took a fuckin syringe to the neck, and Im gonna have a scar on my arm the size of my phone, but fuck it. I did it. Can't believe it. The painkillers are doin a pretty good job too. My shoulder is basically just really sore. But christ, I did it.
Im proud of myself.
Hopefully ill get better as soon as possible.
Shoutout to ronnieboo. Good look on the rice crispy treats.
My fucking shoulder hurts.
Song of the post: gifted - nasa & yeezy.
Im lifted...im gifted...

the very first time that I saw your brown eyes...

I think I said hi. Or maybe I ignored you.
Everyone deserves a second chance. If I knew then what I know now...
Shit baedoll! Your really on my mind more than the guapo. I miss you. Isn't that shit crazy? I was just with you the other day, but I miss you like its been forever. Maybe that's cuz I know you aren't gonna call and just show up. Not tonight.
Tomorrow im waking up and getting fucking surgery, so I get so be fucked up on perks for a few weeks til I recover. Great.
That just makes it even longer before I see you again.
I can't believe I really sung that song acapella today in front of all those people. That was such a crazy adrenaline rush. Usually I get that feeling from gettin hurt or somethin like that, but not from singing. It was wierd. I felt so good afterwards. 2 days sober. Woah.
Its crazy. Life. Its fucking intense. I love it tho. And I love everyone.
Anyways, back to the whole point of this post.
Dear y.o.u.
If I ever fall in love again, ill be sure that the lady is you.
I promise.

Only difference between you and me is that when I make a promise, I intend to keep it.
But I still love you.
And I always will.
Because your my girl
And without you, id be heartless.
Baby come back.
I was wrong and I just can't live without you...

why do she be so mad at me for?

Home idk.
St pattys parade.
People drink way past their limit.
Shit is very real.
Meedy for the most part.
Some cool shit happened, but it was mostly whack cuz I kinda wanted to chill more but fuck it.
One day, imma buy you the world...

Boo I think your my favorite girl ever.

So tell everybody that you know.

I got the right to put up a fight...

today...

I woke up on 2 hours of sleep, went to the doctors, went back to sleep, woke up 4 hours later, got fucking stoned, and stayed high until now.
FML!!!!!!!

And the thing that sucks the most is that I gotta get up for work at 11. And to make things even better, ill prolly end up working all night.
Or not.
Either way, I got like 5 days til my surgery. This is gonna suck so bad.

FML!!!!!!!!

I hope one day, when I least expect it, she comes to me and tells me she loves me and means it. that would be sweet.

We could make our sweet escape...
We should make our sweet escape...

Has anyone told you that you look beautiful today?

Haha.
FML!

dear charles hamilton

There are two voices in my head. One is saying, "let me have it all and get it over with" and the other is saying, "what's the hurry?". Which one should I listen to?
Write back.

never knows best...

Wow. 2 weeks. Nice one. Its funny, I think about blogging but I don't do it.
Never knows best...
Anyways, this is what the past 2 weeks have taught me.
1. Rekindling an old flame is easy, but it doesn't burn the same, and it leaves you with this empty feeling.
2. Dreams are fucked up.
3. When she leaves, I get that same empty feeling those other girls give me, because I guess I don't really know if she's coming back...
4. she really means the world to me. Haha. Christ.
5. If you love something, then expect it to hurt you.

Its all a game baby...
I want my 64 back...
Where's my fuckin 64?

I win.
You lose.
So keep your love locked down...

wow.

March 1st. In 18 days im gettin surgery. Not looking forward to it but eh. Lets do it. Why not, right? Fuck.
6 letters. You know who im talkin about. What a girl.
That's all I have to say about that.
Money is great.
But im still missin somethin.
Im not askin for the whole shabang.
Just some love.
Is that so much to ask?
1st otb mixtape has to come out by april.
If not.
Idk what im gonna do.
Im either makin moves
Or im wastin time
And life is short.
Bitches...
Shoutout to my fav wookie. Ya digz.