that's the end of that!

Ehh. Not as happy with my little project as I predicted I would be. Some of them are piff, but others are ehh. Did good but coulda done better. Anyways...rihanna is sexy.
Shoutout to bfb! Ya dig!

paranoid.

Why are you so paranoid?
Don't be so paranoid.
Baby don't worry bout it.
Look at you.
Tell me right now, do you really wanna spend your whole life alone?
Relax.
It might not be the right time.
Let go of the wheel
And see where fate takes you.
Anyways...

coldest winter.

On lonely nights I start to fade.
All of it doesn't seem like enough to keep my head lost in the voices of your rejection.
The street lights, the bad news, the heartbreak, the nightmares, the paranoia...

Spring is on its way
And I can't say im anything less than ready.
The snow is starting to thaw, and I can taste the difference in the air.
This year will be better...

see you in my nightmares.

In my dreams you love me
But when I wake there is nothing.
Suddenly the insomnia and the lost memory seem to aid me
And offer the only hope I got.
Its just that
When I do manage to fall asleep
And when I do manage to remember
Is when I regret waking up.
I've never seen birds fly by faster than this dawn.
I can't get no sleep.
Ill see you in my nightmares...

pinnochio story.

You can only do this for so long before you forget who you really are.
I'm sick of pretending like I'm someone I'm not
but everything you say reminds me how much I've lost
and every part of myself that I miss.
In order to move on, you have to let some things go
but this wasn't in the fine print.
You move like the silhouette in my window
dances with the raindrops and street lights.
Tonight I'll sleep without you by my side.
I can't keep lying to you
I just want to be a real boy...

love lockdown.

I've seen these walls before.
They distort and delay your voice
but its never sounded more crisp or clear than it does tonight.
And its never anything more than a one night stand
or a hazy memory I'm supposed to hold on to forever.
My wrists are starting to burn
and my faith is starting to drain
because it kind of feels like you really did lose the key...

robocop.

Gunpowder residue and the taste of cold steel on my tounge
And the confining promise of solitude.
I've never felt so...out of control...

bad news.

Didn't you know?
I always had a way of masking my heart
When you start to feel like
You know what I know
But if you knew what I know
You might think twice about that smile.
Newpaper ink peels off tha page and onto my soul
Like putty
Because I just heard some real bad news...

amazing.

Its amazing
How everything you do
And everything I say
Is just another verse.
You always were that vaccum
That sucks all the good out my life
And all the hope out my veins.
Its amazing
Im the reason
Everybodys fired up this evening...

street lights.

She keeps the blinds closed.
She always does.
Maybe its cuz the street lights are so bright
But the streets don't have much direction without them.
A note stapled to the kitchen table
Was all I left behind.
I know I still got time to grow...

heartless.

Cigarette smoke was always your scent
And I guess it was always my vice.
You know, I had no idea you could feel this lonely
In the middle of the night
But you can get a lot of thinking done while the sun is down
And I've run out of liquor
So I might need a pick me up
Because my chest feels empty without your smoke...

say you will.

Its hard to make decisions in situations like this
With feelings so...honest
Brutally honest.
I understand the pressure
With what is at stake
And the fear
Of what the future may hold.
Its all in your hands
And it always was...

welcome to heartbreak.

My head keeps spinning.
Visions of her haunt my dreams
So that even when im wake
I still can't escape them.
It has become more than a phase
But I am happy that I can share it with you
Or at least pretend to.
I've opened my heart to a new chapter...

new idea...

Ok so two fucking smart ass people, shit, I mean, poets. 808s and heartbreak but in poetry. Saul williams style. Don't know why I didn't think of it before. Lets see what I got...

where's my fuckin 64?

Its all a game baby! Everything happens for a reason. There's a time for everything. Take responsibility for your actions and make change.
Im kinda startin to think that 09 really is the year of change. Shit is looking strait. Gotta wake up tomarrow and go my ass to work... make that money... shit real...

Lets get it. Im watchin hard time in alaska. Heh.

Naw. Don't even wanna...

Til next time!

2009

Really might be the year of change. Maybe shit will be different this year. Niggas is growin this year! Im back on tha grizzy bitches!

honestly

I could live in a bar forever...

if I were a real boy

Waddup blog? Heroin is a hell of a drug. Christ.

I have work in 10 hours.
I better get my white ass to sleep...
I can't wait...
Moolah, chips, hot chocolate, and happy hour...
Shit real!

ooh but you say that you only meant well

Hide and seek...
This is what we need and you decided it...
Don't even know what to say or how to feel. You know the deal. Shit real. Fuck.

okay

Well be alright if you don't ask me to stay...