It's been awhile...

Since I posted anything...sort of forgot this is more for myself then anyone else. But at least now I can update from my iPod...maybe I'll just start a new blog...I said I would stop posting after 100 posts or a years passing, and it has been a year. Maybe it's time to open a new chapter...yea. It's a new day. New thoughts, new feelings. It seems like I'm finally saying goodbye to my paranoia. You were good company....

3rd of july. 4th technically

and i cant wait to wake up. the condor and i have been hit with the late night natural drunk and the self inflincted one that is bound for tomorrow will be a great one.
5 hours and it begins....

FINALLY!

damn its been awhile since i posted anything up here. ive wanted to, but for some reason i cant post stuff from my fone anymore. on the bright side, i just got internet on my laptop so i can update this ish more often. not much to say. its been a crazy past few months. alot of shit in my head that couldnt even be read, because even if i wrote it, it would be better off spoken. but yeah. last mixtape was a flop kinda. put it out, but nobody really downloaded it. probably because it was all songs theyve heard already. learned from it though. next mixtape is gonna be alot better. were gonna take our time with this one. we got alot of tracks in the making, some are really good, others are alright. trying to get a good army of songs to make this next mixtape successful. just recorded a video for our song "swagger". came out pretty good. theres alot of stuff we got planned. its just a matter of being motivated enough to do it. but im out for now. ill prolly write something later.
owww....

hold on player, hold on, you can do it.

Good look on the premonitons beat charles. Glad I got to do some venting. Hit me up with that frustration beat. Id really appreciate that shit mah dude. Now that I think about it, you prolly won't, but wen were workin together in the future, im gonna give you a buck for not sendin me it.
In other words, today was kinda live. Chilled wit vato all day then he got drunk n turned into a douche like usual. No alcohol for vato anymore. He has a tendency of overdoing it and being a prick. Sober? He's cool as fuck. Me and vato been fuckin ridin out the past few days while bobbys away. Suprisingly it hasn't been as horrible as I thought. We've been doin some stupid but entertaining stuff. Looking forward to tomorrow cuz its saturday. Saturdays are usually good...
Gotta get on the track shit tho. I've been fuckin around but that's just it, fuckin around, nothing more. Got some good shit out tonight. Proud of that verse. Its deep and its hot. Charles hamilton influenced hardbody.
In other other words, I need to stop smokin weed. Headaches are fucking whackdeeno. My bad bobberino. Maybe that's why I haven't been smokin. Maybe its cuz my smokin buddy aint here. Idk. But weed hasn't really been gettin me high, or at least not as high as im used to. Shiiiiiit.

Shoutout to wiz!
Shoutout to sonic!
Shoutout to ye!

Sotm: welcome to heartbreak - yeezy/premontions - sonicthehamilton

I <3 my asian. Don't forget that assfuckshitdickbitchcunt.

oh yeah.

There's a few things to say. Just to keep me up on my shit.
1. Wiz khalifa flight school mixtape/album/whateveryouwannacallit. Piffdeeno. I was lovin the kanye inspired post names but I have a feeling you're gonna see some wiz ones soon.
2. The tracks are...woah. Never dropped the mixtape. Decided just to get a good 20-30 tracks before we drop anything. Dig it? I mean, since the quality isn't the best and we can't really do much better with what we got, we may as well have quantity. Digz. But we got about 11 tracks as of now and a good 3-5 that are ready to record.
3. My shoulder fucking hurts.
4. Im trying to stop the weed smoking. It really isn't good.
5. I need a girl. Part 2. Diddy status. Dig it.

Speakin of which.
Sotp: I need a girl pt 2 - diddy n mario winnans

This is what I need, is a pretty woman next to me...

I've seen it...I've seen it before...

I could come up with some excuse as to why its been 10 days since my last post, but honestly, I've just been brushing it off. I mean, I don't really have to lie to you, seeing as you are me. I guess. Heh. Anyways. Its been another day in paradise. Unfortunately, we got absolutely nothing done today, and if anything, I fell a few steps back. Weed is whack. I need a new hobby. Not even a hobby. Music is my hobby. Whatever. Anyways, I need the same thing I've always needed: a fucking woman. You know the deal.
in other words, I really fucking miss you boogz, and I wish you were still here. There's so much shit we would've laughed at, so many bucks people woulda got, so many tracks we coulda made. Its a shame my dude. You left this world way too soon, and you're departure has affected so many peoples lives that I couldn't even begin to name each person because I don't think id be able to finish the list. You were a great person, you were hilarious, and you always knew how to make people laugh. Even though your body is gone, your spirit still lives in us. Everybody still remembers you, and everybody still looks for you, if that makes sense. Its hard to believe that in 3 months it'll be a year since you passed. You were my first friend I've ever lost and I can sincerely say that you changed my life. I mean, all of the events last summer changed me, but you as a person in my life changed me. Ever since I met you. I idolized you and I will for the rest of my days. I think the reason god took you was because there just wasn't enough space on the planet for all of the potential you had. They say only the good die young, and I've said it before and ill say it again, you were one of the best.
Rest in peace my brother. OTB really loves you and really misses you and would be nothing without you, litterally. This whole music thing is all because of you, and its all for you. Me, bobby, kam, vato, everybody over the bridge, we all are keepin it wavy in your memory. The wave never stops my dude.
Keep watchin over us. We really need you. This world is crazy, and I can sleep a lot easier knowin that I got a guardian angel lookin over me. Again, rest in peace my friend. We'll meet again one day, and hopefully when that day comes, we can sit back, smoke a jay, and talk about how great the world would be if oxygen was piff and water was vodka. Ha. Much love.

Boogie is my hero. Nuff said. Owww...

the l word post.

Hey.
Just let me confess...
On some real shit, I wish you were here
Or that I was there.
Either way id be happier then I am right now.
I think its funny that I can't find the right words or that I can't do the right things.
Ever.
I guess im just not confident enough for you.

If I came out the blue and asked you to marry me, would you take it seriously? Or would you laugh in my face?

Im leaning towards the latter.

I really hate being alone.

Its funny cuz like, I dnt even wanna feel this way about you.
1. I know you'll never feel the same way about me.
2. if I ever even had the chance to make somethin between us id prolly fuck it up anyways.
3. Your way outta my league.

But my head keeps spinnin,
And when im asleep,
Im dreamin of you,
And when I wake up,
Im thinkin of you,
And when think about you,
And dream about you,
It makes me want you so much more,
But when I see you,
I freeze up,
And say somethin stupid,
Or do somethin stupid.
I just wish i could lie down next to you without gettin nervous,
Or that I could look you in the eye without smilin,
Or that I could think about you without feelin like there's somethin missin,
Cuz then id be alright.
Your always only a phonecall or text away,
And I see you everyday,
But it would be sweet if I got to spend more time with you.

Dead ass.

N I love your brother, but I could fall in love with you.

You're never gonna see this.
But I hope you still get the message.

I really do care about you a lot kiddo.
And you really do make me smile.
So tell everybody that you know.
I got the right to put up a fight, right?

Chewie, if you knew me before, then maybe you'd be my girl.
Oh well. I guess im better off alone...

If I dream about you tonite, then I gotta bag you.

sotp: sooner or later - drake

Cuz the lights don't glow the same way that they used to
And I finally got a moment to myself.
You don't need no one else...

wow. they really like me.

Otb threw me the best suprise birthday party ever. That's all I gotta say about that. Thanks for that shit guys. That was the best fuckin birthday I've ever had. Fun trip to sleeping giant too.
Got a new track called relax.
If dudes make it big ill be so happy.
Otb has got to be somethin big.
I just hope the right people hear it.
Its april 7th, so we got 13 days to drop this shit, and so far we have like 7 concrete tracks. 5 more n it should be piff.
Shoutout to young money.
Drizzy drake.
Weezy wee.
Yeezy.
Bigga.
T-pizzle.
C hamilton.
Cool kidz.
Can't forget about those guys.
Now that's what beat makin is about.
Cool kidz rock shit.
Id be honored to lay down a track with those dudes.
Mikey n chuck.
If you see this, hit a nigga up.
Word.

On a darker note,
Im lonely :\
I hope that when I make it to the top I got a queen to sit on the throne with.
Digz?

But I dnt want no robocop...

the day after tomorrow.

Is my fuckin birthday.
Cool.
So. The booth is sick.
Niggas know the flow is too.
Not much to say about today.
Today was a good day.
I guess.
Nothing exceptional.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Err.
Today.
My bad.

Re: I love you.


What a name for a poem...

and I wonder.

Damn. Screwed up last nite. But I guess I kinda made up for it by doin it now. Its still the 3rd. Ha.
saul williams. You son of a gun. I admire your world. I really do.

I simply want to be
The love song
Dangling from her lips.

I want to be
The one she calls
On her cigarette break
Not the cause of it.

Now THAT is piff. This guy is a fuckin problem. Speakin of problems, charles hamilton is a monster. Im afraid of this dude. He says some sick shit that blows my mind, n his ability to make beats is fuckin outrageous. Feelin the at most im just mixtape.
Speakin of mixtapes, keep those eyes open for the shit were droppin. The so far the sessions have been hard n the hooks have been harder.
Only 17 days now.
Shoutout to asher roth.
Looks like we droppin our mixtapes on the same day.
In other news.
Please don't interrupt my happy ending...cuz I am not pretending...

Have you got it in you?

Cuz I do...

im bad like michael jackson.

its 4 am and im still up.
Its been a long day. Did a lot of shit. Made a beast track. Lookin forward to tomorrow.
For once.
I love my friends and my family.
Maybe this year really will be different.
Im puttin my heart into it.
Digz?
Digz.

Im sorry miss jackson, I am for real...

that was a good one. your first good one in awhile.

Fucking april fools.
Im a fool.

Today better be live or fml to the fullest.

Over tha bridge in tha buildin
We countin up tha stacks n watch tha money hit tha ceilin!

That's the new one.

Look out for that one bitches.

5 days to go...

back in the booth.

I miss it. The deep breaths relieve stress, exhale and release a mess of words scattered across the page but it make sense when I say it. My heart collaborated with my mind the same way it doesn't when im layin on the mattress, sayin whatever comes to mind so I take in as much as I can and absorb. I can see you on the outside but you burn in my core until I vomit and my stomach acids back up the track but a new verse couldn't even stack up to the first. I keep the page loaded to let off whenever needed. The tracks been seeded and im growin like weeds and I aint never gettin pulled out, the lines that are ruled out and ruled out cuz they so ill they got you screamin like schools out. I woke up and the mic was in my line of sight. I aint got time to write so im spittin for my life cuz I aint got time to live so I got time to give. You can find me in the booth until the day I get big. Dig.

Sotp: hittin all tha spots - otb productions.

oz.

I fell down the yellow brick road.
I guess you're just meant to learn some things.
Like the ignorance of a scarecrow,
Or the fear of a lion,
Or the knowing that even the tin man doesn't have a heart of steel.
Nobody is perfect.
Everyone is missing something,
And love, I think you know just what Im lacking.
Now ill never keep you from doing you,
Just remember,
There's no place like home...

Sotp: meteorite - otb productions. oww...

damn.

I fucked up. Shit real. Didn't post every night, but fuck it. Crazy ass past few nights. I've been zooted out my mind. I dnt even know what to tell you. If I said how I felt, you wouldn't understand. I need to quit smoking. Its a fuckin bad habit.
Fml...

Sotp: im the shit - yeezy
Im not human - weezy.
Feel me?

I fuckin hate this shit. Fuck it.
Wtf!

you keep it too real, boy

They fucked up the dbz movie. I was fuckin disappointed to say the least. I really expected them to be more accurate, but come on, were talkin hollywood, they love to chop up movies. If it was made in japan, it would've been done right. Suprisingly, the guy who played goku was pretty good. Yamcha too. And master roshi. Haha. Anyways...im feelin alright for now. Can't really tell the difference between high or not. wierd right? 9 days til my birthday. This should be a fun little count down. If I can manage to remember, then ill try to post at least once a day leading up to my birthday. I can't wait to get that new ds. That shit is hot. Haha. I pretty much got everything I need for the spring already. I got plenty of clothes, I got all of my mariujana accesories haha, and I got a pretty good grip on my shit. I can't wait to recover from this shoulder shit so I can get back to work. That moneys been on my mind lately. I've had no income for the past week and its drivin me crazy. K im done. Oww...

Song of the post: somebodys watching me remix - mysto & pizzi ya diego!

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Kiss me thru the phone! Haha fml!

may as well go if I know its my prime

And until I fade, you'll be frozen in time...

I will always know...

If I had a chance to take back the promises I made, then maybe your face wouldn't fade to a mist everytime im high of the piff, and maybe jay wouldn't exist in your memory, I know you got a locker full of love songs and you lock her out of sympathy, cuz you're still feelin me, but now im on a fresh track, trained for the day that ill say im okay with myself, its a better road ahead but the weather never helps cuz I still slip n slide til I flip off the side of the street, to me you were less than a 3 when I left you but when I met you, you was the best thing, cuz ignorance really is a blessing, the truth is too painful and I am unable to cope without pills, your so cold I get chills when I think back, but I don't really know why Id think that you could float the same boat you sink. That's the reason why I will always know...

dear boo...

When you say you're leaving, you leave behind the resin of X's and O's on my lips and around my arms.
When I close my eyes, I see you, and you look just as beautiful as you do when my eyes are open.
Fuck it, I miss you.
You make me smile, and I've been wearing a frown since I woke up.
I took my pain medication today, but I didn't get my daily dose of you.
So now I just got this numb feeling in my chest.
N that's true shit.
Im gonna die with my music...

dear boo

I miss you. You make me happy. You make me feel good. You are a blessing. I am so happy that I have you in my life. I hope you realize what you mean to me...